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The Hour I First Believed by Wally Lamb
Book Summary InformationAuthor: Wally Lamb Edition: Paperback Audio: English (Unknown); English (Original Language); English (Published) Published: 2009-08-04 ISBN: 0060988436 Number of pages: 768 Publisher: Harper Perennial
Book Reviews of The Hour I First BelievedBook Review: Best I've Read In A While Summary: 5 Stars
Two tortured and deranged students at Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado exact the revenge they believe is theirs and the shock waves resonate beyond the walls of the high school in which they released their rage, nearly collapsing a marriage and setting the lives of many on a free-falling course of despair and fear. High school English teacher, Caelum Quirk was out that day, tending to a sick relative in another state, yet he shoulders as much pain as anyone who was there. Racing home to his wife, a school nurse who'd been present for the shootings, Caelum is overwhelmingly relieved until he realizes that his Maureen was, in fact, a casualty, despite her unbroken skin and beating heart. Suffering a particularly severe case of post-traumatic stress disorder, Maureen spirals out of control into a frightening maze of debilitating flashbacks and drug addiction, that eventually lead her behind bars, leaving Caelum, another peripheral Columbine victim, to worry in the wake of her destruction. Attempting to pick up the pieces of his shattered life, Caelum takes a couple of tenants into his home, one of which helps him begin his quest to discover the truth about who he is and why he is here. Along the way, he finds a valuable faith he didn't even know he needed. In the words of his sensei-like psychiatrist, Dr. Patel, Caelum "embarks on a journey to find what he wants and discovers, along the way, what he needs."
Written in Lamb's characteristically informal tone, the story is told largely from the point of view of cynical, laid-back and occasionally funny Caelum. Part of Lamb's particular skill, the writing sounds more like an old friend recanting an experience at a party than the philosophical, theological and sometimes political discourse of an accomplished wordsmith. I loved Caelum right away just because he says things like, "It was funny, but creepy too, like living with a canine version of what's-her-name in fatal attraction. Not Meryl Streep. The other one. Cruella De Vil." The chapter written from the point of view of Caelum as a child was so authentic, it could have been taken from a child's diary, word for word. Little Caelum informs us, "At school, during morning exercises, we always say something about bad people who trespass against us. It's in either the Pledge of Allegiance or the Lord's Prayer. I always get those two mixed up. You know what? Miss Hogan picked me to lead morning exercises twice this year and some kids haven't even done it once." This author knows how to pay attention to detail. As a result, his characters step right off the page and into my world. I think about them during my day as though they were real people. It's as welcoming and casual as can be, but not too far below the surface, big ideas come into play in this novel, including the controversial question of whose failure the vices of the downtrodden actually are--that of society or that of the individual? And the bigger question of what to do about it, whoever's fault it is.
The book pivots on chaos theory, which is the theory that something small occurs and the shockwaves of it travel farther than imaginable, across minds and time and oceans. One of Caelum's teenage students, Velvet, is sexually abused and it sets the tone for the rest of her life, which is why she offers a sexual favor to the only adult male to ever respect her and gain her trust--Caelum. Lamb masterfully captures both the flimsy, underdeveloped decision-making skills of teenage girls and the perpetuating and disastrous effects of sexual abuse. Velvet, the author illustrates, having been abused, knows no other way to relate to men. How devastatingly sad. Velvet rejects Caelum as a benign adult presence in her life after he refuses and seems disgusted by her offer. We see just how confused she is. She doesn't know whether to be insulted or embarrassed. She's flailing in a confusing, hypocritical and frightening world. This was a chillingly accurate representation of a teenage girl's sometimes disastrous confusion regarding her sexual role in life and a spot-on demonstration of the principles of chaos theory as they apply to real life.
Caelum, cynical to a fault, says, "'There but for the grace of God,' the faithful say. `It's not for us to know His plan' Which, I've concluded, is bull****. Big G, little g: it doesn't matter. There is no mysterious master planner, no one up there who can see the big picture--the order in the disorder." This story is about one man's stumbling, confused journey to find order in a world gone chaotic, to find faith and belief (as the title suggests) in something among all the evil and hypocrisy. With an ingenious combination of myth, real life and history, Lamb has woven a story of the mythical quest in real life so believable and so heart-wrenching I nearly cried when I turned the page and the story was over. But I walked away from it a different person, as I always do after a truly great novel, but I took a little more away too--my mind has been broadened. Anyone who considers themselves open-minded needs to read this book, if only for simple affirmation of their beliefs, and anyone who's narrow-minded needs this book more.
Summary of The Hour I First Believed When high school teacher Caelum Quirk and his wife, Maureen, a school nurse, move to Littleton, Colorado, they both get jobs at Columbine High School. In April 1999, while Caelum is away, Maureen finds herself in the library at Columbine, cowering in a cabinet and expecting to be killed. Miraculously, she survives, but at a cost: she is unable to recover from the trauma. When Caelum and Maureen flee to an illusion of safety on the Quirk family's Connecticut farm, they discover that the effects of chaos are not easily put right, and further tragedy ensues. Product Description Wally Lamb's two previous novels, She's Come Undone and I Know This Much Is True, struck a chord with readers. They responded to the intensely introspective nature of the books, and to their lively narrative styles and biting humor. One critic called Wally Lamb a "modern-day Dostoyevsky," whose characters struggle not only with their respective pasts, but with a "mocking, sadistic God" in whom they don't believe but to whom they turn, nevertheless, in times of trouble (New York Times). In his new novel, The Hour I First Believed, Lamb travels well beyond his earlier work and embodies in his fiction myth, psychology, family history stretching back many generations, and the questions of faith that lie at the heart of everyday life. The result is an extraordinary tour de force, at once a meditation on the human condition and an unflinching yet compassionate evocation of character. When forty-seven-year-old high school teacher Caelum Quirk and his younger wife, Maureen, a school nurse, move to Littleton, Colorado, they both get jobs at Columbine High School. In April 1999, Caelum returns home to Three Rivers, Connecticut, to be with his aunt who has just had a stroke. But Maureen finds herself in the school library at Columbine, cowering in a cabinet and expecting to be killed, as two vengeful students go on a carefully premeditated, murderous rampage. Miraculously she survives, but at a cost: she is unable to recover from the trauma. Caelum and Maureen flee Colorado and return to an illusion of safety at the Quirk family farm in Three Rivers. But the effects of chaos are not so easily put right, and further tragedy ensues. While Maureen fights to regain her sanity, Caelum discovers a cache of old diaries, letters, and newspaper clippings in an upstairs bedroom of his family's house. The colorful and intriguing story they recount spans five generations of Quirk family ancestors, from the Civil War era to Caelum's own troubled childhood. Piece by piece, Caelum reconstructs the lives of the women and men whose legacy he bears. Unimaginable secrets emerge; long-buried fear, anger, guilt, and grief rise to the surface. As Caelum grapples with unexpected and confounding revelations from the past, he also struggles to fashion a future out of the ashes of tragedy. His personal quest for meaning and faith becomes a mythic journey that is at the same time quintessentially contemporary?and American. The Hour I First Believed is a profound and heart-rending work of fiction. Wally Lamb proves himself a virtuoso storyteller, assembling a variety of voices and an ensemble of characters rich enough to evoke all of humanity. From the Author: Wally Lamb's Playlist for The Hour I First Believed I?m often asked what novels by other authors I 'm reading when I?m writing one of my own. The better question is: What and who am I listening to? I?m pleased to share many of the tunes, recognizable and obscure, that helped me write Part I, "Butterfly" of my novel, The Hour I First Believed. I hope you enjoy them. 1. "Gloria," by Van Morrison from The Sopranos - Peppers and Eggs: Music from the HBO Series (Morrison) Caelum saves a slot for Van the Man in his list of ?Greatest Songs of the Rock Era.? Morrison had this hit with the band Them in 1964, the year Caelum was 13. 2. "The Meaning of Loneliess," by Van Morrison from Wh at's Wrong with This Picture? (Morrison) In a bluesy mood, now-middle-aged Morrison explores the ?existential dread? of life?s second half. Middle-aged Caelum?s pondering life?s meaning, too. 3. "A--hole," by James Luther Dickinson from Free Beer Tomorrow (Unobsky) ?Ask any of us cynical bastards to lift up our shirt, and we?ll show you where we got shot in the heart,? says Caelum, as he angrily grieves two failed marriages and a third failing one. 4. "Black Books," by Nils Lofgren from The Sopranos - Peppers and Eggs: Music from the HBO Series (Lofgren) Lofgren?s mournful vocal, matched to his stunning guitar work, mirrors Caelum struggles to accept the jolting reality of Maureen?s infidelity. 5. "Useless Desires," by Patty Griffin from Impossible Dream (Griffin) Dr. Patel advises Caelum that if he cannot forgive his wife, he should move on. Instead, the Quirks move away from Three Rivers and toward tragedy in Littleton. Griffin?s bittersweet road song captures both the desire for and the futility of escape. 6. "At the Bottom of Everything," by Bright Eyes from I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning (C. Oberst) Conor Oberst (aka Bright Eyes) imagines an airplane ride every bit as strange as the one Caelum takes beside chaos theorist Mickey Schmidt. 7. "House Where Nobody Lives," by Tom Waits from Mule Variations (Waits) In response to his aunt?s stroke, and later, her death, Caelum returns to a now-empty farmhouse. 8. "When God Made Me," by Neil Young from Prairie Wind (Young) Caelum, back in Three Rivers and now in his late forties, contemplates an earlier, more innocent youth--and its loss. 9. "Mbube (The Lion Sleeps Tonight)," by Ladysmith Black Mambazo with Taj Mahal from Long Walk to Freedom (traditional) Mr. Mpipi performs a dance of hunger that turns into a dance of love, and a praying mantis egg case explodes with life on young Caelum?s windowsill. 10. "Believe," by Cher from The Very Best of Cher (B. Higgins/S. McClennan/P. Barry/S. Torch/M. Gray/T. Powell) ?Believe? was inescapable in 1999, the year I toured Europe with my previous novel and began this one. The pop star?s durability causes Caelum to speculate that only two life forms would survive a nuclear holocaust: cockroaches and Cher. 11. "My Buddy," by Chet Baker from The Best of Chet Baker Sings (Donaldson/ Kahn) My dad used to sing this song to me when I was a little boy, riding beside him in our green Hudson during Saturday errands. Baker?s songs always makes me sad, but this one?s bittersweet. I played it over and over when I was writing the episode where Caelum?s father drives him to town to buy him his belated Christmas gift. 12. "Mary," by Patty Griffin from Flaming Red (Griffin) When the shooting begins in the Columbine library, Maureen crawls inside a cabinet, writes Caelum a goodbye note, and prays the Hail Mary. 13. "A Case of You," by Prince from < i>A Tribute to Joni Mitchell (Mitchell) This Joni Mitchell classic evokes, for me, the impact of Mo?s Columbine experience on the Quirks? marriage. 14. "Losing My Religion," by R.E.M. from In Time: The Best of R.E.M 1988-2003 (M. Stipe/P. Buck) How could a merciful deity allow Columbine to happen? Caelum?s ambivalence about god turns to bitter rejection. 15. "Couldn?t Hear Nobody Pray," by Maggie and Suzzy Roche, Ysaye Barnwell, and DuPree from Zero Church (traditional) Disengaged and disspirited, Caelum gropes for a spiritual connection but hears only silence. This song was recorded by vocalists from the Roches and Sweet Honey in the Rock in the aftermath of 9/11/2001. The shadow of that cataclysmic day hung over my writing of this novel for six years. 16. "I Drink," by Mary Gauthier from Mercy Now (Gauthier/Harmon) As Maureen?s reliance on prescription drugs increases, Caelum, too, numbs himself--with his father?s, and later Ulysses?s, preferred poison. 17. "Hallelujah," by Jeff Buckley from So Real: Songs from Jeff Buckley (L. Cohen) Leonard Cohen?s haunting meditation about the spirit and the flesh has been covered by many artists. The late Jeff Buckley?s version is perhaps the loveliest and most poignant. 18. "The Ghost of Tom Joad," by Bruce Springsteen from The Ghost of Tom Joad (Springsteen) In the closing days of a traumatic school year, in a borrowed classroom, Caelum and his students discuss Steinbeck?s masterpiece, The Grapes of Wrath. Shortly after, Caelum and Mo will take to the road as the Joads did, yet they?ll travel from west to east. Praise for The Hour I First Believed
?Lamb...has delivered a tour de force, his best yet. A? --Entertainment Weekly
?Lamb, a maestro of orchestrating emotion . . . knows how to make his fans? hearts sing.? --Elle
?A page-turner... Lamb remains a storyteller at the top of his game.? --USA Today
?A soaring novel as amazingly graceful as the classic hymn that provides the title? --Miami Herald
?Wally Lamb is a remarkable talent.? --Columbus Dispatch
?Every character is rendered with vivid, utterly convincing depth....a heck of a page-turner.? --Dallas Morning News
?[Lamb?s] pacing is superb: Sections of the story expand to accommodate a mix of characters, yet scenes don?t linger overlong.? --Cleveland Plain Dealer
?Lamb has crafted another affecting, engrossing tome about complicated, interesting characters.? --Minneapolis Star Tribune
??too compelling to put down?a richly textured story...? --St. Louis Post-Dispatch
?Lamb does an extraordinary job narrating some of the most terrifying tragedies of the past 10 years....an epic journey. Grade: A.? --Rocky Mountain News
?When you put Lamb?s newest novel down, it will be reluctantly. It?s that good.? --Knoxville News-Sentinel
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